Journal: Living Expectations, Risks and Quitting

I was in Highschool back then and it’s almost the end of our senior year. It’s the time of the year again the board is up and your name is plastered all over chalkboard saying “Most likely to succeed in Life”. Your name beaming with pride and you have this machismo all over you that transcends “oh yeah that’s my name right over there”. It is like you won something, you beat your other classmates and you are very confident that you are going to make something of yourself when you are old. Everything is perfect back then and I carry that until I entered college, I really want to make something of myself and I want to prove to the people that I can do it and I will be successful. I study hard and really work hard too, but as you know when you are in that age, you really can’t help but be trapped in the “peer pressure” game. I did a little bit of fun when I was in college, I tried different stuff that teenager tried during my days (but not the dangerous one). It was really an awesome experience. I was derailed a bit and not so focus anymore. I am not the achiever and I really don’t excel in class anymore. I am just right there, In the middle, in the safe place, some may call it mediocre, I don’t know. Don’t get me wrong I still have that hunger to be somebody, I still have the urge to earn a living, enter in a nice company and have a house by the time I turned older. I am in this bubble that everything would be fine as long as I work hard and graduate. I didn’t know what my purpose is or what I am passionate about. I just have a goal to be successful. What I think about Success before is synonymous to having your own house in the suburb, driving a nice car, building a business or VP in a nice company. I didn’t know that there is much to it. Don’t get me wrong, what I mentioned is a great goals and it is something that you should be proud of, because you work for it. Good for you.

As I graduate college and entered in the real world, I was in for a big surprise, It was tough. Adult world doesn’t play nice and certainly not fair. I was just jolted out of my comfort zone and into the world of conniving bitches, unfair bosses, due dates, love life woes, house payment, frenemies, the list goes on and on. I am shocked that I was able to survived all of these things. I am somehow proud of myself. I am still here. I am still fighting for my lost cause. I still want to be somebody. The big difference now is that I know my life passion, I know what to do with my life and I know where exactly I want to be. My last job is really a perfect job, It’s a very lucrative job and I was earning a really decent amount of money and of course a lifelong career. I have my colleagues turned really good friends so I don’t have a problem with that. A lot of people asked me why did you quit? do you have a fallback? did you think it through?. A lot of questions that I really didn’t know the answer. I myself is confused on what I want back then. I am only certain that I want to leave and never looked back. It was really a hard decisions because it doesn’t just involved me. I have debts to pay, I have responsibilities to my family and it will not stop just because I quit. It was the hardest decision and the same time the most liberating.

Fast forward to today, I am still chasing my lifelong dream, I am still praying for it. I am still working hard and I am not stopping until I reached it. I know my purpose now and I know my passion in life. It took me so many years just to understand it and just to figure it out. It’s really a trial and error for me. It’s a learning experience. I have done stupid things in my life and I regret it before but now I know I experienced those life’s booboo’s to prepare me and to learned some thing from it. I am now thankful that I was able to be in that situation to form my character. I have read a book about crossroads and I want to share it to you. “I’d rather flirt with failure, than never dance with my joy”. I am a pisces so when I read this I cried. I cried buckets. It is in that moment that I knew the answer to my question, It is in that moment that I realised that I need to do something and so I am here writing this at 11:15pm in a foreign land with cold flat white and a little bit teary eyed.

I am no life coach, I am just a guy who experienced a lot of things in life and I want to share it to all of you. I really don’t know who reads my stuff on the internet but I think it is my duty to share it because I want people to know that It’s okay to fail, We have our own seasons and if you just wait patiently and work hard for it. I guarantee you success. Don’t be boxed by the type of Success. It varies depending on people, you don’t have to follow the mentality of material achievements. I truly believe that if you are genuinely happy and you feel that your are doing what you love to do then thats it. That’s your calling.

I am still praying and hoping that someday I have the same optimism as the kid that read his name on the chalkboard. I am still that kid.

“The moment that you feel you can leave that place, LEAVE, Because every moment you stay longer than you have to. You will be extraordinarily ordinary” – John Hopkins University President



Travel: Chiang Mai, Thailand 2016

Welcome to the country side where its quaint and far from the bustling city of Bangkok. The city is in the north side of Thailand. It is mountainous in geography and refer as the creative capital of country. There’s more to Thailand’s second city than its glittering golden temples. A burgeoning population of digital nomads is transforming the place into a hipster heaven.

If you are looking for a place where in your creative juices would flow like the Chao Phraya River, This is the place. You will find some cheap rentals and instagrammable places easily.

This is Ang Kaew Reservoir at Chiang Mai University.

FOOD. This is the main reason why I visited Thailand. Thai Food is known in the world to be one of the best and delicious culinary cuisine.

Don’t miss the Night Bazaar Market in the Old City Wall.The Night Bazaar is approximately 1km long on Thanon Chang Khlan (large roads in Thailand are named Thanon, and smaller side streets are named Soi) (so Thanon Chang Khlan translates to Chang Khlan Road(

So prepare your bargaining skills because you will need it.

The main temples and markets all lie within the old city walls, This an area of one square mile. You’ll probably want to sleep outside of it, though – its streets are multitude with tuk-tuks, backpackers on motorbikes and cheap massage joints. Chiang Mai, once the capital of the ancient kingdom of Lanna, runs on tuk-tuks and you can get almost anywhere in the back of one

The view from sacred Wat Phra That Doi Suthep, This Chiang Mai’s main temple, is the city’s most popular panorama. You have to climb 309 stairs up the Naga Serpent Staircase to see it. This is quite an experience. Make your way past orange-draped monks, golden spires and shrines to the far side of the wat for a view over Chiang Mai and the lush mountains beyond. You can either take a taxi, tuktuk or motorcycle.

The Long Neck Village is one memory that is etched in my mind forever, I have dreamt of seeing them in person since the first time I saw them on National Geographic Channel and I really can’t believe it that I was able to see, interact and even hug them. It was truly a magical experience.

I also went on a Elephant Safari which is really cool, one of the highlights of my trip. It was so fun watching them. I highly suggest to see it and experience feeding them. One thing though, they are animals and they get tired too, so please do not ride on them, the staff will let you experience it but just say no. The least thing the we can do to help is to feed and play with them.

Nimmanhaemin Road (8), This epicentre of hipster Chiang Mai, Locals call in “Nimman” It’s a kilometre-long road where in you can witness some of the best tasting coffee in South East Asia where espresso-fuelled digital nomads have made their home.

Here are some of my favorite coffee shops.


BulBul Cafe,


Graph Cafe

Over-all I really enjoyed my stay in Chiang Mai. Thank you to my friend Bank for touring me around the city and for letting me stay in your house. I really appreciate the kind gesture. He is really talented too, you can visit his Blog and Instagram. Follow him.

If you want packages tour, you may visit the old city wall where in you can see heaps of travel tours that will suit to your liking. One reminder though is be ready to bargain as the prices varies. I hope you enjoy this photo tour of the city and will help you decide to visit Chiang Mai.

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All Photos© – Mackario