I was in Highschool back then and it’s almost the end of our senior year. It’s the time of the year again the board is up and your name is plastered all over chalkboard saying “Most likely to succeed in Life”. Your name beaming with pride and you have this machismo all over you that transcends “oh yeah that’s my name right over there”. It is like you won something, you beat your other classmates and you are very confident that you are going to make something of yourself when you are old. Everything is perfect back then and I carry that until I entered college, I really want to make something of myself and I want to prove to the people that I can do it and I will be successful. I study hard and really work hard too, but as you know when you are in that age, you really can’t help but be trapped in the “peer pressure” game. I did a little bit of fun when I was in college, I tried different stuff that teenager tried during my days (but not the dangerous one). It was really an awesome experience. I was derailed a bit and not so focus anymore. I am not the achiever and I really don’t excel in class anymore. I am just right there, In the middle, in the safe place, some may call it mediocre, I don’t know. Don’t get me wrong I still have that hunger to be somebody, I still have the urge to earn a living, enter in a nice company and have a house by the time I turned older. I am in this bubble that everything would be fine as long as I work hard and graduate. I didn’t know what my purpose is or what I am passionate about. I just have a goal to be successful. What I think about Success before is synonymous to having your own house in the suburb, driving a nice car, building a business or VP in a nice company. I didn’t know that there is much to it. Don’t get me wrong, what I mentioned is a great goals and it is something that you should be proud of, because you work for it. Good for you.
As I graduate college and entered in the real world, I was in for a big surprise, It was tough. Adult world doesn’t play nice and certainly not fair. I was just jolted out of my comfort zone and into the world of conniving bitches, unfair bosses, due dates, love life woes, house payment, frenemies, the list goes on and on. I am shocked that I was able to survived all of these things. I am somehow proud of myself. I am still here. I am still fighting for my lost cause. I still want to be somebody. The big difference now is that I know my life passion, I know what to do with my life and I know where exactly I want to be. My last job is really a perfect job, It’s a very lucrative job and I was earning a really decent amount of money and of course a lifelong career. I have my colleagues turned really good friends so I don’t have a problem with that. A lot of people asked me why did you quit? do you have a fallback? did you think it through?. A lot of questions that I really didn’t know the answer. I myself is confused on what I want back then. I am only certain that I want to leave and never looked back. It was really a hard decisions because it doesn’t just involved me. I have debts to pay, I have responsibilities to my family and it will not stop just because I quit. It was the hardest decision and the same time the most liberating.
Fast forward to today, I am still chasing my lifelong dream, I am still praying for it. I am still working hard and I am not stopping until I reached it. I know my purpose now and I know my passion in life. It took me so many years just to understand it and just to figure it out. It’s really a trial and error for me. It’s a learning experience. I have done stupid things in my life and I regret it before but now I know I experienced those life’s booboo’s to prepare me and to learned some thing from it. I am now thankful that I was able to be in that situation to form my character. I have read a book about crossroads and I want to share it to you. “I’d rather flirt with failure, than never dance with my joy”. I am a pisces so when I read this I cried. I cried buckets. It is in that moment that I knew the answer to my question, It is in that moment that I realised that I need to do something and so I am here writing this at 11:15pm in a foreign land with cold flat white and a little bit teary eyed.
I am no life coach, I am just a guy who experienced a lot of things in life and I want to share it to all of you. I really don’t know who reads my stuff on the internet but I think it is my duty to share it because I want people to know that It’s okay to fail, We have our own seasons and if you just wait patiently and work hard for it. I guarantee you success. Don’t be boxed by the type of Success. It varies depending on people, you don’t have to follow the mentality of material achievements. I truly believe that if you are genuinely happy and you feel that your are doing what you love to do then thats it. That’s your calling.
I am still praying and hoping that someday I have the same optimism as the kid that read his name on the chalkboard. I am still that kid.
“The moment that you feel you can leave that place, LEAVE, Because every moment you stay longer than you have to. You will be extraordinarily ordinary” – John Hopkins University President