Hello and I want to start by saying here I go again with my late nights rambling and to be honest I don’t know why I am doing this however I just really want to do it. I also don’t know what’s the main topic or what I am going to talk about. I just know that this is my only outlet and I feel relieved if I got to share this here. This blog is supposed to be a photo blog however the last few posts are about how I feel and maybe my current mental state. I named this blog as chasing. if you ask me what it is. I don’t know either. I am still chasing it and to tell you the truth, I don’t know what I am chasing. The only thing I know and I am certain of is I want it to stop and I just want to live a normal life away from my brutal mind. I just want to end thinking that there is something out there for me and I am really tired of having self expectations. I really can’t control it. I think I am designed to worry all the time and I think this is going to be the death of me. I have read countless books about anxiety, experienced different religions and joined prayer meetings, bible studies and even tried reading Chinese zodiac but it’s still there. I still worry. There are times that I will forget it and then when I am alone again, it comes back like a boomerang. I just wish it would go away. I pray it will fade away. I feel like it is really difficult to be happy. I know a lot of you will say that Happiness is a choice, but How will you choose it? In what instance in your life would you choose to be happy rather than just live in the moment and feel it. Am I making sense here?
oh well I don’t know too……
I just wish that it will go away soon…..
The Visual Writer 